It’s a love-hate history
Some people say I am illegitimate child
The first time I hear people say I am illegitimate child that I am 10 years old, primary school grade 4, in order to have a lovely piece of rubber and I was more than half of my head the table with noisy. I said I was the rubber, rubber, he said that he, like me, how poor children can afford that kind of rubber. It was then time for the school, and pretty soon we were watching the two of the three foreign students, surrounded by up to three. To the teacher when I was desperate to tear the hands of the table, grasping his hand, I have the heart of rubber, like a watermelon, green bag with red Guarang, Ji Li was also above the black seeds.
“5 dollars, a few days before the examination period I was the first, Yang’s aunt bought me a prize.” After a careful verification of the teachers returned to the rubber to me. After the teacher left the table looked at me triumphantly laugh, Pie Piezui table disdain: “What is air? You do not is an illegitimate child?”
At that time, I do not know what is illegitimate child. After returning home, I asked Aunt Yang: What is the illegitimate child ah? I listened to the words of the cooking is a bit distracted aunt Yang, Fan Shao from her hands slipped down off the ground, sent a clear sound.
I and my aunt Yang
My mother is a vague concept, from a young age I was Yang Yi Fu care of an aunt and grew up, when my aunt Yang fast 50-year-old, and she has a son and a daughter, brother, sister and I ask them, they call me an old Girl. Yang Yi Fu aunt as a child and often my brother and sister, said: eat at your old girl, she is also small. We are very poor at that time, Yang’s aunt in a small jordan shoes hospitals to do cleaning, doing masonry construction site in the Yi Fu. I am happy because there is no poverty reduction, so that my brother, sister, aunt and Yang Yi Fu Baby me, Yifu, he used large hand high to give me his head on his neck. To be honest, if not always aunt Yang, pointing to pictures to tell me: ah old girl, she’s your mother, in her very far, I have not the slightest doubt I am their child.
Later, my brother and sister went to the University of Reading in the field, at home we have only 3 months, the more difficult days. Aunt Yang Chang came in the twilight time choose to markets lost some of the dishes Cai Fanzi leaves back surface is sprinkled Xie Yan Yang Yi Fu’s aunt and a vegetable. I, Yang Chang aunt gave me to do a separate bowl Shougan Mian, doused with Roumoxianmo above the brine, the Hong ah. Cold weather, she will be my cold feet into her arms, her soft breast Jiaoya my arrival, on a warm down to the Jiaoya Baihai limbs spread.
Yang thus my aunt raised, not the day I left, she told me to love big invisible.
There are naughty students begin with behind me shouted: illegitimate children have no sense of shame, a mother of Health father did not control. Even though I do not know the meaning of the phrase, but it makes a mockery of the students I know that in the face: It certainly is not a good word sentence. I cried and ran out of the campus.
Aunt Yang Pomp led to my little hand in full view of my class went. My class is the class teacher, said teachers had to apologize after the aunt Yang Cha Zhaoyao roared: Who said my old girl’s father is not Wild Child? I was born she was the! Love from a young age because she’s ill fortune that we are not Niangliang character, do not tell my mother will get better, and I only told me to let her aunt’s. I stare blankly, where excited watching a red face of the well-being of my aunt Yang smiled. Is not it? Not their children who can more than a decade, such as pain day to go to support pet ah! Yang is the nephew of the original my mother!
Yang aunt that day and insisted that a few naughty apologized to me and to ensure that the future will not be bullied me to give up. Yang aunt left I heard the teacher say: This is too Laoyang care of the children.
Tonight, I got into bed Yang Jiao Didi’s aunt called to - his mother. Yellow light, I saw Aunt Yang’s sparkling eyes, her arms tightly and I said: “The old girl, I really want to hear your voice called this mother ah, but … …” “But I am afraid of you Sick. “Jiecha my son. I do not have been heard next to the words Yifu a long way with a sigh.
Photo of a woman on
To see photos of the woman I am a 13-year-old, primary school summer vacation, out of a Fengwan am hungry to run home for dinner. A door I saw the photo of a woman sitting on our family’s small living room, next to Yang’s aunt had just cried his eyes red and swollen with it.
Yang aunt told me that the photograph of a woman is my mother, she called pieces of DU. 13 years ago, her aunt Yang in the work of the hospitals where I gave birth to directly asked me to do the cleaning aunt Yang. At that time her aunt Yang said: “I have to tell her she is the mother of the future, Zheng Leqian I came to pick her up.” I heard the news first reaction was crying in front of nike shoes into the call: “Nonsense! I am your daughter, I am afraid you will not let me sick to call your mother”!
That is a fact, whether I am willing to admit that the call pieces of DU is a woman of my mother. She is now in a modern coastal city to do business, she is to take her there, I went to high school. Her arms around me tightly, said: “These children suffer in you, I would like to compensate you in the future.” I am determined to open her hand and said: “No, I do not where to go, I will be here Secondary school. “
Yang night aunt pushed my little bed to hold my head in her chest, my face close to Yang’s maternal breast, I smell the familiar smell. Aunt Yang said: “The old girl, you go with her mother.” I said: “I do not.” Aunt Yang said: “You see I am old now, my son has graduated from university, and I asked him to go to town Went to enjoy a happy life. “Listening to this, I just cried, I did not know Aunt Yang’s mother, does not seem to be able to rely on a go live. That night, I have been crying, crying has to dawn.
Good morning, I saw the thick pieces of Du Qian Yi Da Yang superimpose aunt, Aunt Yang pushed back: “I brought the old girl is not for this.” Yang Chai Aunt hold out, I saw pieces of DU money into the Yang’s aunt was the yard.
I finally had to leave the house, even though I like to give up. I Chezhuo Yang aunt’s hand: “You allowed the city to look for his brother, you are here waiting for me to come back, I grew up in the back of your support.” Aunt Yang said: “The silly girl, I am not your mother.” I Said: “I know I can still come back to find you.”
My new home
DU rounds when I never said that there are other people at home. The door is a man, wearing a short-sighted mirror, he said: “Hello!” I was stupid-looking pieces of DU to promote the house and found: the house has a beautiful little boy, about 7, 8-year-old look like. Du Mei said: “Shuaishuai, sister called.” And then pointed at the man said to me, “the old girl, Liu uncle.”
I have seen on TV in this house, a living room comparable to Yeung aunt’s house the whole house, snow-white carpet on the floor of the long-haired white, I would even dare to step up. I own a house, there are television, computers, a beautiful bed, curtains and bedspread are all a touch of pink, I sat inside the house in the luxurious feel that this shows the alienation of the house and really I do not have anything, I Full of all that familiar with the small courtyard that there are hot Huokang.
Shuaishuai and pieces of DU is the son of the man, his 9-year-old will only play the piano will speak fluent English. Chang Liu uncles with a smile Shuaishuai see, I know that in the eyes, which filled with love and affection, aunt Yang is used to look at me.
I began to read in junior high school here. In the morning, Liu is responsible for his uncle drove me to school, followed in the evening, I came back, no one along the way we speak, the air was full of embarrassment. I began to think more strongly to my aunt Yang, Liu uncle that I can not stand the cold and polite, but also pieces of DU can not stand the over-enthusiasm that often made me feel hypocritical.
I secretly sneaking out of school to call Aunt Yang would like to tell her that I would like to go back, but from the phone number is empty, the notice. I can only hope that their tears have grown up quickly, can grow up to go back to my aunt Yang.
Later
I chose to block the northern city of Reading University, from where my aunt Yang More recently, Du said after the pieces of know some of my White support, as early as this do not know if I do not like to come back. Over the years I have not called her mother say, in my mind so I hate her, hate her for giving me such an embarrassing identity, she hated me and my aunt Sang Sang Yang and separated. My indifference to allow her patience has been a great test. She should not be with me when I gave birth, when I should not abandon abandoned me in when I should not have to look further to find me, and she began to know that the first daughter never lost to Zhao Buhui A.
School freshman, before I returned to the town, into which I am familiar with the small alley, I walked into that familiar with the small yard I Daizhu: I saw my Yifu, sitting in his wheelchair in the sun, he Weibi The eyes, an air of calm. At his side there is a young woman, holding a blanket is covered in the Yifu legs.
My aunt Yang never left, to replace her on the phone and I was afraid to contact her can no longer be with me Qinniang the good life. I on High that year my aunt have had breast cancer Yang, before the death of my brother and sister would like me to come back, she could be afraid of the impact study did not allow me to inform me. My aunt passed away two years, Yang, his brother told me that he is not the child’s aunt Yang, Yang aunt in a number of years before the orphanage and adopted his sister, on her way to the life of 3 and she did not have any relationship Children.
In order to Yifu brother has gone to the town’s secondary school and work in a small town to marry his wife, sister has been sent to a foreign … … Yifu won cerebral thrombosis, he does not seem to recognize me, although I lie on his legs Ai Ai And cried out: I am your old girl ah.
I went to Yang’s aunt grave, flying all over the sky of my tears in Mingzhi: If separation is the first to know Farewell, saying that I will not leave. I love my pet pain I raise my aunt Yang has become so I will never miss and the pain.
I left my brother said: I will come back, come back and you take care of our father. Brother nodded tears: Yes.
I will come back, Yang maternal love will be in our hands the baton has been passed down.
The first time I hear people say I am illegitimate child that I am 10 years old, primary school grade 4, in order to have a lovely piece of rubber and I was more than half of my head the table with noisy. I said I was the rubber, rubber, he said that he, like me, how poor children can afford that kind of rubber. It was then time for the school, and pretty soon we were watching the two of the three foreign students, surrounded by up to three. To the teacher when I was desperate to tear the hands of the table, grasping his hand, I have the heart of rubber, like a watermelon, green bag with red Guarang, Ji Li was also above the black seeds.
“5 dollars, a few days before the examination period I was the first, Yang’s aunt bought me a prize.” After a careful verification of the teachers returned to the rubber to me. After the teacher left the table looked at me triumphantly laugh, Pie Piezui table disdain: “What is air? You do not is an illegitimate child?”
At that time, I do not know what is illegitimate child. After returning home, I asked Aunt Yang: What is the illegitimate child ah? I listened to the words of the cooking is a bit distracted aunt Yang, Fan Shao from her hands slipped down off the ground, sent a clear sound.
I and my aunt Yang
My mother is a vague concept, from a young age I was Yang Yi Fu care of an aunt and grew up, when my aunt Yang fast 50-year-old, and she has a son and a daughter, brother, sister and I ask them, they call me an old Girl. Yang Yi Fu aunt as a child and often my brother and sister, said: eat at your old girl, she is also small. We are very poor at that time, Yang’s aunt in a small jordan shoes hospitals to do cleaning, doing masonry construction site in the Yi Fu. I am happy because there is no poverty reduction, so that my brother, sister, aunt and Yang Yi Fu Baby me, Yifu, he used large hand high to give me his head on his neck. To be honest, if not always aunt Yang, pointing to pictures to tell me: ah old girl, she’s your mother, in her very far, I have not the slightest doubt I am their child.
Later, my brother and sister went to the University of Reading in the field, at home we have only 3 months, the more difficult days. Aunt Yang Chang came in the twilight time choose to markets lost some of the dishes Cai Fanzi leaves back surface is sprinkled Xie Yan Yang Yi Fu’s aunt and a vegetable. I, Yang Chang aunt gave me to do a separate bowl Shougan Mian, doused with Roumoxianmo above the brine, the Hong ah. Cold weather, she will be my cold feet into her arms, her soft breast Jiaoya my arrival, on a warm down to the Jiaoya Baihai limbs spread.
Yang thus my aunt raised, not the day I left, she told me to love big invisible.
There are naughty students begin with behind me shouted: illegitimate children have no sense of shame, a mother of Health father did not control. Even though I do not know the meaning of the phrase, but it makes a mockery of the students I know that in the face: It certainly is not a good word sentence. I cried and ran out of the campus.
Aunt Yang Pomp led to my little hand in full view of my class went. My class is the class teacher, said teachers had to apologize after the aunt Yang Cha Zhaoyao roared: Who said my old girl’s father is not Wild Child? I was born she was the! Love from a young age because she’s ill fortune that we are not Niangliang character, do not tell my mother will get better, and I only told me to let her aunt’s. I stare blankly, where excited watching a red face of the well-being of my aunt Yang smiled. Is not it? Not their children who can more than a decade, such as pain day to go to support pet ah! Yang is the nephew of the original my mother!
Yang aunt that day and insisted that a few naughty apologized to me and to ensure that the future will not be bullied me to give up. Yang aunt left I heard the teacher say: This is too Laoyang care of the children.
Tonight, I got into bed Yang Jiao Didi’s aunt called to - his mother. Yellow light, I saw Aunt Yang’s sparkling eyes, her arms tightly and I said: “The old girl, I really want to hear your voice called this mother ah, but … …” “But I am afraid of you Sick. “Jiecha my son. I do not have been heard next to the words Yifu a long way with a sigh.
Photo of a woman on
To see photos of the woman I am a 13-year-old, primary school summer vacation, out of a Fengwan am hungry to run home for dinner. A door I saw the photo of a woman sitting on our family’s small living room, next to Yang’s aunt had just cried his eyes red and swollen with it.
Yang aunt told me that the photograph of a woman is my mother, she called pieces of DU. 13 years ago, her aunt Yang in the work of the hospitals where I gave birth to directly asked me to do the cleaning aunt Yang. At that time her aunt Yang said: “I have to tell her she is the mother of the future, Zheng Leqian I came to pick her up.” I heard the news first reaction was crying in front of nike shoes into the call: “Nonsense! I am your daughter, I am afraid you will not let me sick to call your mother”!
That is a fact, whether I am willing to admit that the call pieces of DU is a woman of my mother. She is now in a modern coastal city to do business, she is to take her there, I went to high school. Her arms around me tightly, said: “These children suffer in you, I would like to compensate you in the future.” I am determined to open her hand and said: “No, I do not where to go, I will be here Secondary school. “
Yang night aunt pushed my little bed to hold my head in her chest, my face close to Yang’s maternal breast, I smell the familiar smell. Aunt Yang said: “The old girl, you go with her mother.” I said: “I do not.” Aunt Yang said: “You see I am old now, my son has graduated from university, and I asked him to go to town Went to enjoy a happy life. “Listening to this, I just cried, I did not know Aunt Yang’s mother, does not seem to be able to rely on a go live. That night, I have been crying, crying has to dawn.
Good morning, I saw the thick pieces of Du Qian Yi Da Yang superimpose aunt, Aunt Yang pushed back: “I brought the old girl is not for this.” Yang Chai Aunt hold out, I saw pieces of DU money into the Yang’s aunt was the yard.
I finally had to leave the house, even though I like to give up. I Chezhuo Yang aunt’s hand: “You allowed the city to look for his brother, you are here waiting for me to come back, I grew up in the back of your support.” Aunt Yang said: “The silly girl, I am not your mother.” I Said: “I know I can still come back to find you.”
My new home
DU rounds when I never said that there are other people at home. The door is a man, wearing a short-sighted mirror, he said: “Hello!” I was stupid-looking pieces of DU to promote the house and found: the house has a beautiful little boy, about 7, 8-year-old look like. Du Mei said: “Shuaishuai, sister called.” And then pointed at the man said to me, “the old girl, Liu uncle.”
I have seen on TV in this house, a living room comparable to Yeung aunt’s house the whole house, snow-white carpet on the floor of the long-haired white, I would even dare to step up. I own a house, there are television, computers, a beautiful bed, curtains and bedspread are all a touch of pink, I sat inside the house in the luxurious feel that this shows the alienation of the house and really I do not have anything, I Full of all that familiar with the small courtyard that there are hot Huokang.
Shuaishuai and pieces of DU is the son of the man, his 9-year-old will only play the piano will speak fluent English. Chang Liu uncles with a smile Shuaishuai see, I know that in the eyes, which filled with love and affection, aunt Yang is used to look at me.
I began to read in junior high school here. In the morning, Liu is responsible for his uncle drove me to school, followed in the evening, I came back, no one along the way we speak, the air was full of embarrassment. I began to think more strongly to my aunt Yang, Liu uncle that I can not stand the cold and polite, but also pieces of DU can not stand the over-enthusiasm that often made me feel hypocritical.
I secretly sneaking out of school to call Aunt Yang would like to tell her that I would like to go back, but from the phone number is empty, the notice. I can only hope that their tears have grown up quickly, can grow up to go back to my aunt Yang.
Later
I chose to block the northern city of Reading University, from where my aunt Yang More recently, Du said after the pieces of know some of my White support, as early as this do not know if I do not like to come back. Over the years I have not called her mother say, in my mind so I hate her, hate her for giving me such an embarrassing identity, she hated me and my aunt Sang Sang Yang and separated. My indifference to allow her patience has been a great test. She should not be with me when I gave birth, when I should not abandon abandoned me in when I should not have to look further to find me, and she began to know that the first daughter never lost to Zhao Buhui A.
School freshman, before I returned to the town, into which I am familiar with the small alley, I walked into that familiar with the small yard I Daizhu: I saw my Yifu, sitting in his wheelchair in the sun, he Weibi The eyes, an air of calm. At his side there is a young woman, holding a blanket is covered in the Yifu legs.
My aunt Yang never left, to replace her on the phone and I was afraid to contact her can no longer be with me Qinniang the good life. I on High that year my aunt have had breast cancer Yang, before the death of my brother and sister would like me to come back, she could be afraid of the impact study did not allow me to inform me. My aunt passed away two years, Yang, his brother told me that he is not the child’s aunt Yang, Yang aunt in a number of years before the orphanage and adopted his sister, on her way to the life of 3 and she did not have any relationship Children.
In order to Yifu brother has gone to the town’s secondary school and work in a small town to marry his wife, sister has been sent to a foreign … … Yifu won cerebral thrombosis, he does not seem to recognize me, although I lie on his legs Ai Ai And cried out: I am your old girl ah.
I went to Yang’s aunt grave, flying all over the sky of my tears in Mingzhi: If separation is the first to know Farewell, saying that I will not leave. I love my pet pain I raise my aunt Yang has become so I will never miss and the pain.
I left my brother said: I will come back, come back and you take care of our father. Brother nodded tears: Yes.
I will come back, Yang maternal love will be in our hands the baton has been passed down.
